So the Birthday...

I love the boyfriend. He is too sweet for me. I don't deserve him. I tell him this constantly. He just does not listen to me. He got me tickets to see a show at the Citadel. I loved the show it was fantastic and I really cannot wait till December to see A Christmas Carol. But I just don't feel I deserve all this, I hate my birthday. I feel that it is an inconsequential day who gives a shit if I was born that day. I really don't but it is something that must be done apparently. I always feel that my birthdays with my family are very forced pleasent. Why force it? Why dont we just pretend it didn't happen. I am down for that.